Touching on something I mentioned yesterday, I am going to write about Self Discipline. I have great difficulty with this. I never listen to myself, find it very hard to force myself to do anything and it annoys me.
I find myself telling myself that I'll go the bed in half an hour, which then increases in 30 minute intervals until I end up not sleeping at all some nights. The same goes with waking up, maybe 5 more minutes in bed sometimes ends up in whole hours in bed, missing college or cancelling plans. The biggest thing I tend to do this with is college work and coursework, sometimes putting it off for two months, or until a time where I can just about finish.
There's other things I do with self discipline that don't involve procrastination but rather things I should not be doing. Spending money, the way I eat, the amount of Pepsi I drink, and other such habits I find very hard to control. I wouldn't say I have an addictive personality, I am just weak willed and can not say no to myself.
Recently, I did say no to something I really wanted. I am so glad I said no, I proved to myself that I can say no, and it isn't really that hard. I spend so much time thinking about consequences of saying no, that I don't usually have time to say it, or I talk myself out of saying no, exploring what comes of me taking opportunities.
Yesterday I ignored myself, I don't know yet if this will prove a good decision or not. I bloody well hope so.
Dan
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