Friday, 10 July 2009

Thank you Atatürk.

I arrived home less than 24 hours ago. In the last 30 hours, several emotion pulling events have occurred. I have left my camera, one of my more prized possessions in Turkey. I didn't show that it affected me badly, making a joke over it helped. I am not really upset about the camera, I am very upset about the photos I have lost.

The flight home turned out to be fun. Catching the eye of the cuter, hairier flight attendant and half flirting with him. He was lovely. Would I say I fancied him? No. I would say, however, I did have fun, and it did make me feel very nice, especially since I'd just lost my beloved EOS 350D.

When I got out of the airport and logged onto facebook, this is what has caused me the most stress. A truly massive family argument involving at least 9 members of my blood relatives. How I got dragged into it, I will never know. Arriving back to a country which one can't wait to leave, to find a large amount of stress, is something only to push one away a lot sooner. I do not want to get involved and have chosen to ignore it, even though some of the things that have been said have made me extremely angry.

I was made very, very angry, probably for the time, by Tom. I am glad that I now have no reason but before I knew what the text meant, I was very angry at how stupid and thoughtless the boy had been. He's lucky that she found out the real meaning before I got hold of him.

I think all of the bad events that happened, really came out of me today when I called my sister, and couldn't hear her response. She got angry from me yelling 'Pardon?' around 3 or 4 times. I then flipped, and threw my cereal bowl into the kitchen. This frightened my sister, she doesn't see me that angry often, and what's more, I frightened myself.

I still feel emotional. Waking up alone this morning felt alien, even though I've done it since I was born.

A week in beautiful weather and in beautiful surroundings with amazing and beautiful friends was really what I needed. It went to quickly and I can't wait for it to come back. I want it to.

I don't think I will be writing about the holiday itself, but only it was wonderful and thank you to Steph, Lauren, Stef and of course the lovely Sara.



Dan


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